Complexities

Sometimes being thorough breeds a bit of fear. I'm in the process of committing and recommitting our situation to the Lord. Yesterday, while I drove to Panera to have lunch with friends from Arkansas, T called MD Anderson to double check the PET scan order. Surgery was originally scheduled for September 1st - the second day of school - which could be difficult given the complexity of this year. MDA is in the process of trying to get it all rescheduled for September 15th. As T was talking with Dr. E.'s assistant, he learned that the reason it is so difficult is due to all the doctors who will be on stand-by during this surgery, including a neurologist. The reason for all the stand-by people is because T's doctor is the most thorough person on the face of the earth. I am convinced of this! But as the assistant listed the various specialists, I felt my heart racing a bit faster and a bit of pounding in my head. T didn't look so hot either.


We are well aware that T's case is exceptional, rare, difficult. And I guess we could deal with this better if we were the only two people involved. But we have children and grandchildren, students and colleagues, and we don't want to cause pain or become burden to any of them. We served as missionaries for our church for 25 years and once a missionary, always a missionary. Wherever we go, we believe that God has called us to be His voice. The method God the Father used to communicate His love and plan for salvation to the world was to send Jesus, God Himself in human form, into the world among other human beings. We believe that one method He uses to communicate His love for people in cancer centers is to send His people into those centers, sick and needy but willing to be His voice. So we go and we really want to go without worry or fear. And that's what we are praying. We go - to face whatever - but those left behind... oh Lord, please help them.